Stressed

Today was kind of, well, blah. The only way I can think of to describe how I was feeling today is to call it s a "hodge-podge of confusion and frustration combined with lack of sleep."

Last night I got in and I was exhausted. I called Mandie and left a voice mail, telling her that I'd be awake for about 20 more minutes if she got the message and wanted to call. Well, that lasted about 5 minutes; I was dead to the world (I think I fell asleep at 10:30). Around 1:00 I woke up to find myself on the couch (and very stiff) so I got up and walked around for a few minutes to try and work out the kinks. Then I got in my bed and laid there... and laid there somemore... I finally fell asleep around 4:00. I woke up again around 8:00 and laid in bed for a while longer, trying to fall asleep again. No dice.

The actual day was... well, I'll put it this way: I started it off by cutting the top of my left ear. I was shaving my head and I got the razor too close to the top of my ear. As far as the rest of the day, nothing really seemed to go by way. Our consultant was late in getting back with us on our weekly music meeting, I just couldn't get fired up for my show today, I half assed my workout at the gym... not to mention that I was sleepy all day. I think part of my problem was that I'm dreading this weekend. Saturday is going to be a BUSY day because I'll be at the Fiesta Fort Wayne festival all day (literally) and I have to get my show done on My at some point. Also I was pretty impatient about some things today (mostly work related). That's really not like me so I don't know what was going through my mind today.

I'm tired but I think I'm going to stay up a little longer to make sure I'm good and sleepy when I finally hit the hay. My boss is out of town so that means I'll be busier than usual; I can't have another night like last night if I want to make it out of this week in one piece.

I hate being stressed.

--Jonathan