Ball of Confusion
It's about 12:35 AM on 9/12 and I just got back from Cybar Club. I'm drained. Not just because I'm tired but emotionally, mentally and utterly drained. I've had so much on my mind the past week, some of which I can share and some of which I'd prefer not to at the moment (sorry).
My brain is fried.
I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life. Everyone goes through a point in their career where they go "is this what I want to do until I'm 65?" Don't get me wrong, I love radio. But I'm really questioning some of the decisions I made in my past that are affecting me today (mentioned in a previous post). As you may have guessed, I'm really no closer to deciding waht to do than I was when I wrote that a few days ago. Sure, I want to go back to school but I have so many options... I can go to school here, I can move back to Mississippi, just stick out my current path... but I'm no closer to knowing the right decision than I was before.
I've figured out what one of my problems is: I'm homesick. Now ask me if I'll get to go home anytime soon. The answer: Of course not. I won't be able to take any more time off until at least Christmas time and maybe not even until January because I think I've burned all of my vacation time for the year. Anyway, my family's always been very close. I miss all of them badly. When I think of how much I'm missing right now, it drives me up the wall, even though I try not to let it get to me. I just don't know what to do... I'm so confused about so many things.
Don't you just love a walking cesspool of confusion?
If you're wondering how my date with Dana went, we had a good time. The night didn't go exactly as planned but we still managed to salvage a nice evening together. She and I had dinner and watched "The Ring 2" at my apartment and then talked for a while afterward. She's really nice and, honestly, reminds me a lot of my ex from Mississippi (Pam) in her appearance and mannerisms. She's a medical assistant for one of the local health systems and she eventually wants to become a R.N. Heh, how do I always manage to attract the nurses?! :-) I'm planning to see her again; I think we'll have dinner again and maybe take a walk at a park.
Ok, it's almost 1:00 and I need some sleep. Tomorrow's going to be a long day... potentially really good or really bad. I'll keep this updated as best as I can.
--Jonathan
My brain is fried.
I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life. Everyone goes through a point in their career where they go "is this what I want to do until I'm 65?" Don't get me wrong, I love radio. But I'm really questioning some of the decisions I made in my past that are affecting me today (mentioned in a previous post). As you may have guessed, I'm really no closer to deciding waht to do than I was when I wrote that a few days ago. Sure, I want to go back to school but I have so many options... I can go to school here, I can move back to Mississippi, just stick out my current path... but I'm no closer to knowing the right decision than I was before.
I've figured out what one of my problems is: I'm homesick. Now ask me if I'll get to go home anytime soon. The answer: Of course not. I won't be able to take any more time off until at least Christmas time and maybe not even until January because I think I've burned all of my vacation time for the year. Anyway, my family's always been very close. I miss all of them badly. When I think of how much I'm missing right now, it drives me up the wall, even though I try not to let it get to me. I just don't know what to do... I'm so confused about so many things.
Don't you just love a walking cesspool of confusion?
If you're wondering how my date with Dana went, we had a good time. The night didn't go exactly as planned but we still managed to salvage a nice evening together. She and I had dinner and watched "The Ring 2" at my apartment and then talked for a while afterward. She's really nice and, honestly, reminds me a lot of my ex from Mississippi (Pam) in her appearance and mannerisms. She's a medical assistant for one of the local health systems and she eventually wants to become a R.N. Heh, how do I always manage to attract the nurses?! :-) I'm planning to see her again; I think we'll have dinner again and maybe take a walk at a park.
Ok, it's almost 1:00 and I need some sleep. Tomorrow's going to be a long day... potentially really good or really bad. I'll keep this updated as best as I can.
--Jonathan
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