Life's Little Twists and Turns

Hello one and all. It is I, Jonathan, yet again to bring forth all that has been going on with me.

Life is a strange thing. I don't even think I have to tell you that but I just felt that it needed to be said. One minute you're cruising along, everything seems to be going well and all of a sudden... WHAM! Your car (in my case, a truck) hits a tree (before you ask, no I haven't been in an accident; it's a metaphore people). That happened to me. And it's not just one event like some who already know some of the details think, it's actually a few things that have happened.
The biggest: I am, yet again, S-I-N-G-L-E. The short version of the story: Nicole says that she has feelings for another guy and has for four years. Excuse me? Wait a minute... we get into this relationship and all of a sudden this thing with the guy comes out of nowhere? Hmm...

I talked to Mandie about this situation and told her the story and she said that she couldn't think of who this mystery suitor could be. Now I'm not saying that Nicole lied to me because I really don't have any reason to think that... she's been honest with me about everything else as best as I can tell. But I just wish I could have known about this hang up sooner and especially that I could have found out in a different way than I did (I won't get into that). No, you pervs, I didn't find her in bed with someone else. See, I know how some of you think. :-)

Nicole, if you're taking this as a slam against you, you really shouldn't. This is my blog... this is the one place where I'm honest and can vent. If you're offended by my honesty, that's too bad. I will never apologize for being honest. We can talk about it if you wish... you know how to reach me.

So this has caused me to take a good look at myself. I mean, I basically got dumped for another guy. It's not the first time that's ever happened to me but it still makes you wonder about yourself. So I've decided that I'm taking a break from the whole dating/relationship thing for a while and I'm going to figure some things out about myself. One of the questions running through my mind (although it really shouldn't be, at least most who know about it say that it shouldn't) is whether or not I'm doing something to make this happen. Am I smoothering? Am I trying to move things along too fast and it's causing problems? Am I not being as great of a boyfirend as I should be? It's any number of things like that... Everytime I think I've found a great woman, something happens to mess it up. Am I the root cause of it? I guess I have some thinking and pondering to do.

So besides all of that, I've had my spirtual life awakening that I talked about in a previous post. I'm still doing well with it. My mission next weekend is to go to a new church and see how I like it. There are several churches around Waynedale (the part of town that I live in) so I'm going to start exploring those, doing research online, talking to people, etc. I'm still praying and reading my Bible most everyday. One of the things I've been praying for guidance on is the stuff I mentioned above. Maybe God's trying to tell me something through all the things that have happened in my love life.

The past week has been good at work. It's a month until the book starts... actually, less than that. We still have lots of fine tuning to do and we also have to finalize our plans promotionally. We have some great things we're going to be doing. Obviously I can't talk about them just now but it's going to be a fun ratings period.

I guess that's all I have for right now. Time to go home, do some laundry (I'm stillllll catching up!) and maybe clean a little. Until we meet again, my friends...

--Jonathan