The Funk Continues
I think, however, this is more than just a funk. I swore I wouldn't get this way but it looks like I am, in fact, home sick. It's not like I'm so bad off that I want to move back home and never come back here, I just want to go home for a couple of days and see my family. It kind of sucks, being one of the few radio people in Fort Wayne who isn't from here (side note: For Fort Wayne to be as big of a market as it is, it's unusual for most of the radio personalities here to actually be from here). Most everyone in my building can go home anytime they want because they live not far from there. I, on the other hand, am now 12 hours away from home so I don't have that luxary.
It's not that I'm bitter, in fact I completely understand because of the nature of the career path that I've chosen, but I can't lie and say that I'm not disappointed that I may not be able to go home soon like I had hoped. I can't go this weekend because we have a station event. And there may be one next weekend. Basically, if I don't get to go next weekend I won't be able to go home until at least Christmas. This day of funk is partially my fault, though, because I had gotten my hopes up. Oh well... Christmas isn't that far off so I could survive. It'll just make me that much more glad to finally see my friends and family.
Some of my friends don't understand why I feel this way. Many of them have been living away from home for some time now and aren't very close to their families. As for me, I am very close to my family and I honestly don't have that many friends so the ones I do have are close. It's not that I dislike Fort Wayne, in fact I love it up here; it just doesn't beat home. It's been a huge adjustment for me because this is the first time I've ever lived away from home. Until three months ago, the furthest I had ever lived from home was about an hour and a half. Needless to say there has been plenty of lonliness and even some wonder if I should just move back home. Of course, I know that isn't the answer because I'd regret "giving up." Plus it could quite possibly be career suicide. I have opportunities up here and I need to take full advantage of them.
Other than that, I'm alright. I guess I'm still growing up. As for what can be done about how I feel, I guess all I can do is hope that I can go home for a visit soon and just continue to give this a chance. I also need to combat my shyness. I'm open to suggestions.
Bed time.
--Jonathan
It's not that I'm bitter, in fact I completely understand because of the nature of the career path that I've chosen, but I can't lie and say that I'm not disappointed that I may not be able to go home soon like I had hoped. I can't go this weekend because we have a station event. And there may be one next weekend. Basically, if I don't get to go next weekend I won't be able to go home until at least Christmas. This day of funk is partially my fault, though, because I had gotten my hopes up. Oh well... Christmas isn't that far off so I could survive. It'll just make me that much more glad to finally see my friends and family.
Some of my friends don't understand why I feel this way. Many of them have been living away from home for some time now and aren't very close to their families. As for me, I am very close to my family and I honestly don't have that many friends so the ones I do have are close. It's not that I dislike Fort Wayne, in fact I love it up here; it just doesn't beat home. It's been a huge adjustment for me because this is the first time I've ever lived away from home. Until three months ago, the furthest I had ever lived from home was about an hour and a half. Needless to say there has been plenty of lonliness and even some wonder if I should just move back home. Of course, I know that isn't the answer because I'd regret "giving up." Plus it could quite possibly be career suicide. I have opportunities up here and I need to take full advantage of them.
Other than that, I'm alright. I guess I'm still growing up. As for what can be done about how I feel, I guess all I can do is hope that I can go home for a visit soon and just continue to give this a chance. I also need to combat my shyness. I'm open to suggestions.
Bed time.
--Jonathan
posted by Jonathan at
10:41 PM
1 Comments:
Word, J.T.
Look at it this way, it could be worse. You could be in my situation. Ya know, something that you and B-Dub have both always said to me..
You gotta do what makes you happy. I don't know you well enough to know exactly what that is in your case, but there's my 50 Cent worth.
Peace out, brotha.
-- Cooper
Nights- WHOT
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