Life
The last few days have been a time of reflection and pondering for Jonathan.
Wait, why the hell did I just refer to myself in third person? Sheesh!
Anyway...
I have been thinking about a lot of things the last few days. It's been one of those times when I thought I had everything figured out, thought I had all the info but I never did to begin with. When one realizes that, all it does is raise more questions. What the answers are, I don't know just yet; I'm still trying to figure them all out. Some things are becoming more clear and others are still kindda dark.
One thing I've realized is that I shouldn't worry too much about the future. What I mean is, stop putting the future ahead of the present on my list of priorities. Some things you do have to plan ahead for (retirement funds, etc.) but there are other things (like relationships) that should be left alone and allowed to grown on their own. Take it a day at a time and don't worry about five years from now.
WTF??? My mouse just started moving on its own!!
Ok, that was weird...
Anyway, back to what I was talking about.
Take those things a day at a time: That's the lesson I've learned lately. I've always had a tendency to make that mistake. I've always been the type to be so worried about a few years down the road than the present time. I guess that's one of my many flaws that I need to keep working on.
I'm also weighing on some other decisions. Honestly, I'm not too sure what's going to happen with those at this point but I'm going to see how everything plays out. All I can do is take it a day at a time (good advice) . I've been praying about things... I'll see what God has in store for me.
-------More posted at 6:00 PM:
I just took a drive around Fort Wayne, got lost, started going the wrong way down a one way street (had I not turned around in time, that might have made the news tonight) and listened to what is probably the most depressing CD I've ever burned. All in all it was a pretty depressing afternoon to put it bluntly.
For those of you who may not know me very well, when I have things on my mind sometimes I'll just need to put some gas in my truck and drive around for a bit. Actually, there was a time when I would do this with a girl I used to know in Meridian and we'd call it "getting lost" because we basically did that everytime we took a ride and took random turns. But I digress. My mind's not much clearer than it was before I left but I did think about some stuff. One thing I've decided is that no matter what I'm going to be ok. Things work out the way they're supposed to in the end and all we can do is accept that and go about life. No matter what happens, I'm still going to get up in the morning, take a shower, shave, brush my teeth, put my clothes on, come to work, do a show, go home, go to bed eventually and do it all again the next morning. No matter how bleak things may look at the moment life must and does continue. It's up to us whether we want to be a part of it or allow life to pass us by. Whatever is meant to happen is going to happen. Whether I agree with the outcome or not, I have to continue on with my life.
I went to the Fort Wayne Freedom's game last night and it was pretty fun. Although I had all this stuff on my mind the entire time I was there. My station sponsors the dance teams that perform at half time of the games and I went onto the field to introduce them. After I went out there to do my thing, I went back to the field enterance and one of the things I kept thinking was "I was just in front of about 7,000 people, yet I feel so alone." I guess life's just like that sometimes.
I've probably rambled on enough for one day so I think I'm going to go home, make some soup, watch a couple of movies (rented Friday Night Lights and Love and Basketball [one of my favorite movies and I'm not ashamed to admit it!]) and probably call it a night unless something happens to change that routine.
If you pray, please keep me in your prayers. I'm really going through a trial here and I have a ton of decisions to make.
--Jonathan
Wait, why the hell did I just refer to myself in third person? Sheesh!
Anyway...
I have been thinking about a lot of things the last few days. It's been one of those times when I thought I had everything figured out, thought I had all the info but I never did to begin with. When one realizes that, all it does is raise more questions. What the answers are, I don't know just yet; I'm still trying to figure them all out. Some things are becoming more clear and others are still kindda dark.
One thing I've realized is that I shouldn't worry too much about the future. What I mean is, stop putting the future ahead of the present on my list of priorities. Some things you do have to plan ahead for (retirement funds, etc.) but there are other things (like relationships) that should be left alone and allowed to grown on their own. Take it a day at a time and don't worry about five years from now.
WTF??? My mouse just started moving on its own!!
Ok, that was weird...
Anyway, back to what I was talking about.
Take those things a day at a time: That's the lesson I've learned lately. I've always had a tendency to make that mistake. I've always been the type to be so worried about a few years down the road than the present time. I guess that's one of my many flaws that I need to keep working on.
I'm also weighing on some other decisions. Honestly, I'm not too sure what's going to happen with those at this point but I'm going to see how everything plays out. All I can do is take it a day at a time (good advice) . I've been praying about things... I'll see what God has in store for me.
-------More posted at 6:00 PM:
I just took a drive around Fort Wayne, got lost, started going the wrong way down a one way street (had I not turned around in time, that might have made the news tonight) and listened to what is probably the most depressing CD I've ever burned. All in all it was a pretty depressing afternoon to put it bluntly.
For those of you who may not know me very well, when I have things on my mind sometimes I'll just need to put some gas in my truck and drive around for a bit. Actually, there was a time when I would do this with a girl I used to know in Meridian and we'd call it "getting lost" because we basically did that everytime we took a ride and took random turns. But I digress. My mind's not much clearer than it was before I left but I did think about some stuff. One thing I've decided is that no matter what I'm going to be ok. Things work out the way they're supposed to in the end and all we can do is accept that and go about life. No matter what happens, I'm still going to get up in the morning, take a shower, shave, brush my teeth, put my clothes on, come to work, do a show, go home, go to bed eventually and do it all again the next morning. No matter how bleak things may look at the moment life must and does continue. It's up to us whether we want to be a part of it or allow life to pass us by. Whatever is meant to happen is going to happen. Whether I agree with the outcome or not, I have to continue on with my life.
I went to the Fort Wayne Freedom's game last night and it was pretty fun. Although I had all this stuff on my mind the entire time I was there. My station sponsors the dance teams that perform at half time of the games and I went onto the field to introduce them. After I went out there to do my thing, I went back to the field enterance and one of the things I kept thinking was "I was just in front of about 7,000 people, yet I feel so alone." I guess life's just like that sometimes.
I've probably rambled on enough for one day so I think I'm going to go home, make some soup, watch a couple of movies (rented Friday Night Lights and Love and Basketball [one of my favorite movies and I'm not ashamed to admit it!]) and probably call it a night unless something happens to change that routine.
If you pray, please keep me in your prayers. I'm really going through a trial here and I have a ton of decisions to make.
--Jonathan
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