Random Thoughts and Ramblings Whilst Waiting On the MIx

Well, I'm sitting here waiting on DJ Wicked to send me tonight's mix show so I might as well update this thing. Jamie K's been on me about that so I guess I should do this just so she'll get off my back. *ducks to avoid flying objects*

Jamie, you know I'm just giving you ish. :-p BTW, be careful what you ask for because you just might get it... read on.

Sometimes I get in a mood where I ponder life and society in general. Today, Jamie and I were talking about the constraints that society puts on us. For example, she was talking about how if you do certain things when you're a young child that it's so cute and precious. Yet, if you do some of these things as an adult you're type cast. Like, it's ok for a girl to hang out with a bunch of boys when she's young but if she does it at age 21 then she's a slut. Society is crazy... if you do something out of the "norm" then you're weird and an outcast. Why is that? Why do we do this to ourselves and our fellow man (or woman)? Why do we say "well, it's ok to be this way when you're a kid but if you're this way when you're an adult then you're weird?" Things like thumb sucking would be kind of strange to do an adult hood but I'm not even talking about asenine things like that... I mean the things like just walking away from someone you don't like ("you're a bitch/bastard") or a girl hanging out with a some guys "you're a slut."

And that brings me to another thing: Double standards. Why is it that if a guy has a bunch of girls around him he's a stud, yet if a girl has a bunch of guys hanging out with her then she's a slut? Will someone please, for the love of Pete, explain this one to me?

I've never understood why some things are ok for guys but not ok for girls... or even vice versa! Girls/women are allowed to like movies like "Love and Basketball," and "Steel Magnolias." Yet, if I like those movies, I'm gay. Yes, I do like those movies (those two in particular are among my favorites) and I'd hardly say that I'm a homosexual. I even like to cuddle (yeah, I said it). Yet, some would say that makes me less of a man. Feh. Also, is it just me or are people even inadverantly becoming biased against homosexuals? While that lifestyle isn't for me, I have no problem with people who are gay... but society seems less tolerant while also saying that we should be more tolerant of gays and lesbians. The gist of that long ramble: When someone doesn't like something why do they go "that's gay!"? I DON'T GET IT!

Maybe I'm not meant to... maybe no one is.

When I think of things like this, it only further makes me think that a society where your worth as a human being is determined by what label your clothing has on it, what movies and music you like and what your credit score is has got to be what will bring mother Earth to her knees. Just today Madonna said in an interview that she refers to the world around us as "The Beast" (possibly meaning the anti christ?) and that we're all enslaved by it... she also went on to say that if we, as a society don't change our ways that we're all going to Hell. Normally I don't agree with Madonna and I think she's just some loon hiding behind her religion/cult of choice. However, after really pondering her comments... the more I think she makes some sense.

We have become enslaved to the world and to a society that is just royally screwed up. Look no further than the examples that I've cited above for why I think it's so messed up. One might say "we need to change this! Who's to blame?" To that I say: "Look in the mirror." Yep, we did this to ourselves. Can we fix this? Honestly, I don't think we can.

The truth hurts, eh?

But maybe you can help to change my mind. In order to do that, we need to change the way we judge other people. When it comes to judging others, just don't! I know that I've been guilty of passing judgement on people from time to time but I sincerely try not to do that. Even in the Bible it says that it's not our place to judge each other ("judge not les thou be judged").

But, again, I won't hold my breath.

Don't you hate it when I get in my moods? Jamie, I warned you!

--Jonathan

Lessons

I've learned a few lessons this week:

1. It's not fun wearing damp boxer shorts.
2. Bagging groceries is not as easy as it looks.
3. Things done with good intentions can, and will, backfire.

The Saga of The Broken Dryer, Part. 2

You may have read a few posts ago about my dryer. Well, I did a load of laundry on Monday and put them in the dryer, only to find out that my dryer was broken... again. So I called Mr. Fix It from the apartment complex... three days later it's finally fixed... again. In the process, I didn't have any clean boxers so I had to wear damp ones for a day. I did get my clothes dry at a laundromat but for that one day... it sucked.

A Day In the Life of a Bag Boy

Scotts, a local grocery chain, had their annual Cancer Day this past week. Cancer Day is where they donate 2% of their total sales for the day to the American Cancer Society. For that day they had volunteers come in to bag groceries. All of the jocks in my building were baggers and let me tell you... bagging groceries is not as easy as it looks. You gotta remember to keep certain items seperate, not to smush the bread, watch the eggs, etc. Thanks to that two hour shift at Scott's, I now have a new appreciation for grocery store baggers. The job is actually tough! And the abuse... it was incredable. But all in all, it was a good day and a learning experience.

One of the things that stuck out in my mind about that two hours was the interesting people that I met. I probably couldn't tell you any of the names or anything like that but I did meet some really unique people. There was this one little girl that I shall never forget. She was trying to play with the credit card machine and her mom would always move her hand away from it. The little girl saw me looking at her while I was bagging her mom's order and she winked at me, as if to say "watch this." As they were leaving, she pushed one of the buttons on the machine and just looking at her mom, smiling. I laughed out loud. It was priceless.

So Much Drama In the Club

I can't get into too many specifics because this is a work thing... but there was an incident at a club recently that really could cause some trouble for me and my station. Nothing really bad, mind you, it's just going to take a little bit to clean up. Things like this have happened in the past and it's always just kind of gone away... hopefully this time won't be any different. By the way, I apologize for the vagueness of this but, again, I can't really get into specifics right now... sorry.

Fast forward to Friday night... I was there and decided to try and smooth things over with the other person involved. Bad idea. By the time all was said and done, the situation was made worse. We didn't fight or anything, he just refused to accept my extention of a proverbial olive branch and the fact that I was even talking to him was apparently not a good idea. In hindsight, I should have stayed away and had I know that things would be made worse, I would have.

Lesson learned here: Any action with good intentions can, and often does, backfire.

Epilouge

I actually wrote most of this yesterday (Saturday). Today is Sunday and as I look back on what I wrote, I realize just how crazy the past week has been. Some of the things that have happened are petty, some are eye opening and enlightening, while others are possibly damaging even though you didn't intend for them to be. Aside from the lessons that I talked about above, I have to add one other one to this list: I learned that I have a great support network of friends in place who are there for me and who love me no matter how badly I may unintentionally screw up. You all mean the world to me and I don't know what I would do without you. So thank you. :-)

--Jonathan

Bitching Again/Some Good Stuff

It seems like all I do these days is bitch and moan about stuff. It just seems that I've had a lot to bitch about. Don't get me wrong, I have some really good things going on in my life right now, I just had some other stuff on my mind as well.

So, Sandy told a listener that we were lying about Shady being in Fort Wayne. Ok, here's the back ground: I went on the air today and told people that Shady had been spotting in Fort Wayne and we were trying to figure out what exactly was happening. The listeners were the ones that assumed it was Eminem, we never said anything about Eminem coming town. Come to find out that a listener calls up my good friend Sandy and Sandy tells the listener that Shady isn't in town, that they don't get on the air and tell lies.

Hey dumbass, Shady is our new night guy. Thanks for plugging him, he really appreciates the support!

I swear, I don't understand women and I may never. No offense to any ladies who may read this but I seriously don't know but two women that I can actually understand (and one of them is my mama). I know of a girl who's in an abusive relationship. Now, common sense would tell you to leave the abuser in that situation. Is she going to? No. Why? "Because I love him."

Why is love often used as an excuse to cause hurt? And here's an even better question: Why is "love" an excuse to stay in a relationship like that? I've heard all of the reasons that someone could "love" someone who's abusive toward them (low self esteem, abused as a child, etc.) but I just don't see how anyone, regardless of their past, could mistaken physical or mental abuse for love. It just boggles me when I hear of things like this.

It also breaks my heart.

Man, I'm depressing.

As I mentioned a little while ago, I do have some good things going on. I actually have some extra money for once (shock and awe!) so I've been buying some clothes, mostly winter stuff. Old Navy had a great sale going on yesterday and I'm going to hit up Kohls soon. The rumors that I'm seeing someone new are also true. She would be Jamie, the one I wrote about in my last post (I think I may have made that obvious LOL). Things are moving slowly but surely... I'm not complaining about that, though. Slow is good.

As for radio, the Fall ratings sweeps (or "the book" as we refer to it) has gotten off to a great start. We've had a big couple of weeks so far. We announced that we're bringing Too Short to Piere's in a couple of weeks, today we announced that we're going to give away a lot of money with the Fugitive Cash Code and tomorrow we're announcing... if you wanna know, you're going to have to listen or keep watching this for updates. ;-)

Alright, I'm gonna load in tomorrow's music and then I'm heading home to do laundry. That and I need a shower and Cherry Coke. :-)

--Jonathan